i wholeheartedly apologize for this discomfort i might have caused, especially you, Nightmares Company members. now, with great concern, i finally (since was confronted) understand that what i did was disgusting and had a devastating effect on others. i also misheard that boky was 15 years old, so i considered them 15 as same with me. i know it was a terrible oversight, but i am still shocked by how badly i handled it. i did not realize how horrible these situations were for the people around me. no feelings and, above all, no consideration was given to the comfort level of several other group members because i was too busy with the idea of 'us' —the most significant mistake. it was thoughtless behavior toward everyone else involved and toward leaf, who i left out without realizing it and not in any way meaning to exclude you from boky. it's tough for me even to think that i came close to doing this. i am very, truly sorry for making anyone feel invalidated or ignored. i swear not to bring intentionally suggestive messages or even relationships over the internet to keep everything in comfortable ways. it's never what i intended; i take responsibility for it. i will make sure i always take into consideration people’s comfort level. i will make all of my interactions that are personal took to dms and NEVER suggestive or etc. i’m open to any constructive feedback and willing to have discussions for self-betterment. i am committed to this experience to learn and improve. but, at the same time, i do understand that as sorry as i am for what i did and all my apologies, what has done has been done; damage is permanent. if that made you uncomfortable, i'm sorry. and to boky, you didn’t do anything wrong; i took things too far. thank you very much for reading my apology and giving me a chance to improve myself.

- cheq

ps. for ATOC object show group - i will not force you to include me in ATOC, i will let you decide. honestly, i wouldn’t blame you for kicking me out, but if you decide to leave me in that’d be okay as well.
for leaf - i've not sent you an apology yet but i have it typed out. i havent sent it since you said specifically not to message you until you unblock me, because i want to respect your privacy at this moment. i hope we can end on good terms and if not that at least neutral terms and i understand completely if you don't want to interact with me at all, i'll respect your privacy.